I don't really know how I'm feeling now. The last two days should have been amazing: Honour's Day and Prefects' Training. But somehow, it just didn't feel special, like it should have.

I had expected Honour's Day to be like the glorifying moment of the SCBT. That we would be, at this moment and day, more than ever, be bonded as a team. As one whole body together having fun, feeling proud of ourselves for getting that far. But it didn't feel that way at all. I was ditched at lunch, sitting with the juniors (not that I mind, they are really crazy), sitting near the end of the line in the hall. I thought that we would be able to keep each other company throughout the whole thing and never feel the least bit bored. I thought that after the ceremony we would go as a team to the canteen, we would eat as an entire team, we would talk, we would laugh, we would camwhore. It was nothing like that. I don't even know why. Maybe it's just me, but honour's day wasn't meaningful like I thought it would be.

I missed most of the prefects' training today, sitting in only for some committee presentations, presenting my own committee, proposal writing and dinner. Dinner was quite enjoyable I guess. But maybe I didn't fully enjoy it because I was tired. There's a new PSR, 11 of us.

Chris, Siew, Marieann, Lizzie, Vicky, Inez, Clare, Serene, Clarisa, Megan.

I'm really going to miss Nat and Liwen. ): PSR is noisier now I guess, it looks promising, but maybe it;s because right now it feels different. I'm not used to it, and it's taking some time to sink in.

Went to Island after the whole thing. I am SO tired now. And there's training tomorrow. Then tuition. Then dinner at the Ritz! (:

But life is not great. Exams in 28 days. Haven't started studying. And I need my EOY results if I want to DSA. How screwed am i?