I found out two negative things about myself today. Well maybe not found out, just I don't know, can't find the word to say it right now. =)

1. I AM A FREAKING CRYBABY.
I really really don't know what's wrong with me! Crying four days in a row? That's really really very stupid. I mean, I had some fun this week, and most of it wasn't THAT bad, just a lot of lazing around and stuff, but FOUR FIRGGIN DAYS IN A ROW IS NOT NORMAL FOR A FOURTEEN YEAR OLD LIKE ME. Gah!

2. I'M GETTING FATTER SNIFF.
The truth hurts. Stupid training and stupid me for not cooling down enough. MY THIGHS ARE GETTING BIGGER AND BIGGER and I can tell because my jeans are getting harder to put on, but it has nothing to do with my waist so it's SO OBVIOUSLY ME STUPID THIGHS. Then my mum had this pair of pants that she had when she was seriously skinny, and I can't wear them, but my OTHER SISTER WHO IS OLDER THAN ME CAN. Double Gah!

Yeah. This week must be one of the suckiest weeks in my life so far.

But the happier part about today is that I finally bought the pink jacket/parka/coat for JAPAN! =) It's so adorable and pretty and I would take a picture and post it, just that I remembered you'll be seeing lots of it when I come back from Japan and post pictures up. I also got a new beanie and gloves and a pullover. =) ALL with a little bit of pink here and there to match my jacket. =) And I ate donuts. =))

Can't believe I'm going to Japan in a week! It's all so fast. SASHIMI AND RAMEN HERE I COME!

Went to Vivo just now for dinner. Went to level 2 to choose a restaurant, and we walked down the whole thing, and then I finally chose to eat at the first restaurant at the row. Heh. I ate this Fish melted cheese thing, but I think it's a lie, because only like, the top and bottom fish had this tiny little coat of cheese. Could hardly taste it at all!

The Christmas tree was HUMUNGORNORMOUS(ireallydon'tknowhowtospellthisword) and I took lots of pretty pictures of and with it. =)

So anyway, my mum bought her coat for Japan, and I'm going to buy the pink one I want tomorrow. Either one of them. Their both pink anyway. =)

I slept three hours of the day away today! But I really didn't want to do anything.

My progress for To Kill A Mockingbird has come to a stop. I don't feel like reading it anymore!! Sigh.

Today's training would actually have been quite good, because I was playing well today, but then there was physical and footwork. I totally broke down during physical, when we were sprinting. I don't know whether I was crying because I was out of breath, or whether I was out of breath because I was crying.

Either way, I've cried for 3 days in a row now. All for different reasons, but still. Times like this I think back to the english compo exam. Hmm.

Yep, so to make this a little less emo,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELISA SISTERR!

Oh yeah, and thanks everybody who kept asking me if I was all right. =)

Oh yes,
Does anybody else seem to find that this month is going by extremely slowly?

That pretty much sums up my week.

So one of the outings was the kindergarten one, and yesterday, SCBT Bestdamnfamily went to joellyn's house to play Wii! But first, there was training in the morning and invest prac in the afternoon.

After training, Siew and I went to bathe(with my lovely apple shampoo and strawberry body one hahahah) and then she, melo and i went to Caltex for lunch! Cheapest lunch I've had in a long time. We ate instant noodles and then I bought m&ms, dark chocolate for tis and crispy for me. =)

Invest prac was ok I guess, Mei Yin and i have finished painting the fire hydrant! Now we just have to outline it. Act 3 learnt our song too! It's really really cute, I think it's awesome. I BET ACT 3 IS THE MOST EFFICIENT ONE. Which is totally unlike techno last/this year. Hahaha.

So then later Siew and I met Elisa at Newton and we all took the mrt to Aljunied and then we walked over to joellyn's house. When we got there the 3 other people were playing tennis, and then I joined in, and I'm really violent when I play. HAHA. I really really swing the whole nunchuck around, but it was so FUN. PF and wenhui kept screaming!

Then we played Guitar Hero:World Tour. I sang most of the time, and I think I killed the performance quite a few times. HAHAHA. NO. SLEEP. TILL BROOKLYN!! It's really hard to follow the line, and I think I was off key most of the time. HAHAHA. Why I am in a sport that doesn't require singing. The guitar is fun to play with too. =)

Then we ordered in Pasta Mania for dinner and we watched America's Got Talent at the same time, and then after that most of us left.

I went home, and I found out that it was my grandmother's wake that night. My dad didn't even tell me about it. Yep, and something happened which made me super duper angry and emo, and so I pretty much lay in bed for a lot of the night with my radio on sort of loudly and my light on. I did eventually switched off the light at about 2, I woke up again at 3+am and 7+am. So annoyingg.

So this morning was my grandmother's funeral. Second one this month. It wasn't much like my grandaunt's one, but that's obviously because it's different religions. So there was like, a mass and everything, and then we went to the crematorium. I cried there, it's really hard to think that she won't be there anymore, even though I never really knew her that well. Went for lunch at this Indonesian Restaurant at Vivo. The food's really good though, all the curry and stuff. I shared a chendol with Lillie. Then later I got my natural confectionery co gummies from candy empire. =)

My grandmother's obituary was in yesterday's paper. My name's there too.

Well, that's about all the excitement I'm going to get this week. Next week, hopefully it's study date with Meiyin! =) Then at the end of next week it's off to Japan. So fast! OMG.

BYE PEI LI AND PEI TING! HAVE FUN IN TAIWAN. =)

Ten things about me.

1. Are you single?
Duh! And probably will be till I'm 19 or later.

2. Are you happy about that?
Yeahhh. Makes my life just a little less complicated. =)

3. Are you bored?
I kind of am because I'm doing this quiz.

4. Are you sad?
nahh.

5. Are you Italian?
Nope!

6. Are you plastic?
All flesh and blood. =)

7. Are you cool?
AND hot.

8. Are you Chinese?
TOTALLY. =)

9. What are you?
I'm MIRANDA BERNADETTE LIE YAN LIN. =) Oh wait that's what. Not who. Oh, well, I'M JUST ABOUT THE AWESOMEST PERSON YOU CAN EVER MEET.

Ten Facts.

1. Initials.
MBL

2. Nicknames.
Mimi, randa, mwanda, wanda, and gasp, coocnut(but it's been a while since i've been called that phew!)

3. Birth Place.
XIN JIA PO.

4. Hair colour.
I like to think dark dark dark brown. =)

5. Age.
ONE FOUR.

6. Eye colour.
Brown

7. Birthday.
300394

8. Mood.
Nothing. I'm not feeling anything. OH NO.

9. Favourite Colours.
PINKPINKPINK.

10. Left or right handed.
Right

Ten this or that?

1. Love or money?
LOVEE

2. Hard liquor or beer?
ERr. what's hard liquor?

3. Cats or dogs?
Doggies! =)

4. A few best friends or many regular friends?
Few best friends! I'm even fine with just one.

5. Television or internet?
internett! Can do more things

6. Pepsi or coke?
I like sprite. =)

7. Wild night out or a romantic night?
This and that?

8. Money or happiness?
HAPPINESS.

9. Night or day?
night. Supposedly cooler.

10. IM (instant messanger) or phone?
IM.

Ten differences in a relationship.

1. Smile or eyes?
smile

2. Light or dark hair?
Darkk, like mine! =)

3. Hugs or kisses?
HUGS!

4. Intelligence or attraction?
Has to have some of both! =)

5. Hook-up or relationship?
relationship duh

6. Trust or love?
everybody needs both. =)

7. Long distance or short?
Definitely short.

8. Call or text?
textingg

9. Older or younger?
older or same!

10. Looks or personality?
refer to 4!

Ten Last.

1. Last phone call you made?
hmmm, to sean to ask him where he was because he was like uber uber late!

2. Last phone call you received?
same as abovee

3. Last person/people you hung out with?
pat's school house people tammiannsarahmaxinejoelsean

4. Last person to text you?
pei li

5. Last person you tickled?
don't remember... i think dee.

6. Last person you IM?
ella buddy!

7. Last person you hugged?
well it was a group one with me sarah and maxine

8. Last person you slept with?
neo, trinity, morphius, moomoo2,piggywiggy, sticker, dino, pei wei(the panda!), eeyore

9. Last person/people you laughed with?
Probably PSH people

10. Last dream you can remember?
I really don't remember! I only remember one dream. My McFly dream. =)

Ten people I tag:
Ella buddy
Sarah fangg
marissa
peifen
melo
vicky
pei li =)
you X3.

I'm a little lazy to post today, so I shall just post words and pictures. =)

Sunday GENVEN Confi!
ID photo booth walkwalk deeoverslept crowded achinglegs
peoplespotting nudgind roses nophotowithgen=( waiting
macswithtis





Monday Christmas Tree setting up!
screaming atleast5cockraochesomg picturetaking overloading
obiang redgoldsilver presentthrowing ribbondumping
lightunravelling videotakingofchristmastreelight-_-
tahitiplaying=) picturesrefusingtouploadsorry

Tuesday PSH Reunion/Gathering
sarahtammiannmaxinemirandaseanjoel camwhoring hatpulling
waiting walking hothothot sesamestreet walkingincircles
billybombers anorexicguys almostforgettingtopay
drumplaying(stupidstandardlevel!) houseofdeadscreaming
racecardriving(andfailingbecauseofthestupidwheel!)
parapara-ing ice-creameating wouldyourather
windowshopping girlsdresstrying boredguys
scarygrossteddybears catwalk gummyeating mrttaking

A. People who have been tagged must post this on their blogs.

B. Tag 8 ppl to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse.(this doesn't really matter to me) These ppl must state who they are tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by.
Tagged by: Ella buddy

C. Continue this game by sending it to 8 other people:
1. Mei Yin
2. Tisa
3. Pei Li
4. PW
5. Sadrina
6. Pei Fen
7. Ruth
8. Alethea

START-
1.What have you been doing recently?
Training, invest prac, going out. Not touching homework

2.Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
Yep. If not I'd be booked! =)

3.What happened at 10am today?
Training

4.When did you last cry?
Friday.

5.Believe in fate/destiny?
Nothing happened to me that should make me believe.

6.What do you want in your life now?
Freedom of choice.

7.Do you carry a umbrella when it rains or just put up ur hood?
Umbrella ella. ella. a. a.

8.Whats your favourite thing to have on your bed?
Pillow. No pillow, very little sleep. If not, NEO.

9.What bottoms are you wearing now?
FBTs

10.Whats the nicest thing in your inbox?
Email or phone? I can't check my email because it's screwing up on me now, and my phone, I JUST DELETED LIKE 500 MESSAGES. But if I had to choose, ______ apologising for _____. Yeah.

11.Do you tend to make a relationship complicated?
Relationship as in boy/girl or fren fren. I don't think so, but maybe my sensitivity can make it strained or something?

12.Are you wearing anything borrowed from anyone?
Nope.

13.What was the last movie you caught?
Madagascar 2: Escape to Africa

14.What are you proud of?
Being myself.

15.What does your oldest text msg in ur inbox says?
Right, I've got a match on tuesday. What time is the thing?

16.What was the last song u sang out loud?
The High School Musical Spring Musical Medley.

17.Do you have any nicknames?
Ya think?
Mimi, mwanda, mwandy, dada

18.What does ur last text msg says?
Haha I can't take the cold too!but oh well... Its necessary evil for a white christmas...

19.What time did u go to bed last night?
10 plus... Felt really sleepy after dinner.

20.Are you currently happy?
Not necessarily happy. Neutral.

21.Who gives u the best advice?
Jieji.

22.Do u eat whipped cream straight from can?
Nope. Hardly eat whipped cream at all

23.Who did you talk on the phone last night?
Last night, no one. Throughout the day, my maid, PF.

24.Is something bugging you now?
Yes.

25.What/who was the last person to make you laugh?
Somebody in the team. Can't remember who though.

26.Do you wear toe socks?
Is that like, the socks which look like gloves for your feet? NO.

27.Who was the last person you missed a call from?
No caller ID!

28.Have you ever had your heart broken?
I'M TOO YOUNg dammit.

29.What annoys you most in a person?
Arrogance, temperament.

30.Do you have a crush on someone?
Like, someone I know know? No.

31.Have you ever done cocaine?
I've done Cocoa, but definitely not cocaine! I'M CLEAN.

32.What is the colour of your room?
Green

33.Would you kill someone you hate for a billion bucks?
Yeah right, the only one who will feel the pain is me, because I'm going to have to spend the rest of my life in prison and I can't ever spend the money.

34.Do you believe in the saying,’ Talk is cheap’?
I don't really get it.

35.Who was the last person to lie in your bed?
Me.

36.Who was the last person to hug you?
Probably my mum.

37.Did you see the last person you kissed recently?
Mum, yep! =)

38.Do you have a life?
If I didn't, would I be here? But honestly, I don't think so.

39.Have you ever thought someone died,when they didnt?
Haven't experienced many deaths. And no.

40.What is the reason behind yr profile song?
Profile song? No song!

41.Who was the last person you saw in yr dreams?
I haven't dreamed in a long time.... I remember I had a dream last night, but I can't remember what it was about anymore.

42.Last time you smiled?
Now.

43.Have you changed this year?
I don't know... I guess, everybody changes all the time.

44.What are you listening to rite now?
Grace Kelly - Mika

45.Are you talking to someone while doing this?
Uh-uh

46.Do you walk with your eyes closed or open?
Most of the time open, but I have to blink.

47.Is there a quote you live by?
Not really.

48.Do you want someone you can never have?
MCFLY. HAHAHA.

49.Have you ever played an instrument?
Yes, but not necessarily well.

50.What was the worst idea you’ve had this week?
It's the start of the week... Worst idea is deciding to use the computer instead of doing something productive I guess. That's not really a idea though, it's more of a decision.

51.What were you doing last night at 11pm?
Sleeping

52.Are you happy with your love life rite now?
What love life?

53.What song best describes yr love life?
Once again, What love life?

54.Does the person know you like him/her?
WHAT PERSON??

55.Who always makes you laugh?
People.

56.Do you speak other languages other than english?
CHINESE.
But,
maaf, saya tidak boleh cakap melayu!

57.Favourite websites?
my bloggie, facebook, youtube I guess. MCFLY.COM

58.Whats yr middle name?
Bernadette

60.What do you think you are like?
Generally happy, sensitive.

61.Who will you choose to die with?
I don't want to drag anyone down with me.

62.Where have you been today?
School, bus, home

63.What game do you play often?
Computer games? None really.

64.Who are you missing now?
BRB.

65.If you had to choose between your friend or your lover which will you choose?
Depends on why I have to choose between them. Probably friend though, because the person who's going to be with me has to like everything about me and around me.

66.What are you doing right now?
Doing this? Listening to iTunes

67.Which primary school are you from?
SC!

68.Name 3 colours that you like?
Pink, red, green.

69.What emotion do you like to show?
Emotion or emoticon? I guess it's all the same. Happy. :D

70.What is your life to you?
Important? Worth living?

Instructions: Remove 1 question, add in your own question, and make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 person in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

1. What disappoints you the most?
Not being able to do something I want to, not being able to live up to my own and others expectations of me.

2. Where will you go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket?
A tour ticket? If it's only one I'd rather not. Going all around the world alone is no fun.

3. What do you like the most about yourself?
The fact that I always try to stay happy even though I really can't do that ALL the time, but the fact that I try. If I didn't try at all, my life would be a lot worse than it is now. Not that my life is that bad.

4. Do you think money can buy happiness?
Temporary happiness, yes. Long term? Nehh.

5. If you can have one dream to come true, what would it be?
I don't really have a good dream that is really really worth coming through and that willl change my life for the better right now, but if I had to choose, I want to be in the exco. =)

6. Do you believe you can survive without money?
Never. Ever.

7. What are you afraid to lose the most?
Everything that I have now.

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
I will, definitely go on a shopping spree, I can't help it. Then I guess I'll give some money to charity, travel around the world, treat people to meals. =)

9. What do you dream of doing in the future?
I really have no idea where I'm going with my future. When I was younger I always dreamed of becoming famous though. The materialistic kind of famous, like, model, singer whatever crap like that. I know that's definitely not going to happen yeah. It was kind of a stupid thought anyway.

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you?(Mei Yin)
Smart, sensitive(like, tactful way), focused.

11. What is tomorrow going to be like?
Hopefully fun, and not awkward. Short. Travel-ly.

12. What type of person do you hate most?
Temperamental people, people who just can't admit that they are in the wrong and believe that nothing in the world is their fault, people who believe that they are the best in the world and nobody else matters and as a result treat others like sugar.

13. Where do you see yourself 10 years down the road?
Finishing Uni, having a good stable job, nothing spectacular.

14. What do you think is the most important thing that has happened to you in your life?
Important as in significant? If that's the case, then it's most probably being raised by one parent. If I had two parents growing up, who knows what kind of person I could be. I could have been selfish, snobbish and nothing like I am now.

15. Which friend of yours you don't want to lose most?
It's hard to pin point an exact friend obviously. I've lost a lot of friends throughout my life already, and right now, with the groups of people I'm with, I don't want to lose anyone.

16. Who is your best buddy?
Literally, it would be Ella and Xin yuan! =))
Others include, Pei Li, Pei Ting, Mei Yin, Tisa, Pei Wei.
That's the top layer I guess. Top top. The people I feel I can tell anything to really, and will understand and listen.

17. What will you do if you have a lot of free time but you cannot step out of the house?
I will die of boredom. Go blind due to the excessive use of computer and watching tv.

18. Are you courageous enough to go and tell the person that you like he/she?
I don't know. I've never felt the need to tell anyone, so I never know unless it happens.

19. Who do u always bully?
Ha. Ha. Ha. I don't bully anyone. =)))
Yeah. Right. The part of the post-it gang in front of the BRB! =)

20. If you could have a superpower, what would it be?
One of the ones I want is to be able to create like, a protection shield(LIKE BELLA HAHA) so that I can protect the people around me, and the other one I would want is like, being able to take other people's power, like rogue, just that I can control it as and when.

TAGGY:
Ella buddy
Pei Li HAHA.
Pei Fen
Err. Any other 5 people. =)

49 more posts till the big FIVE OH OH.

Today has been an okay day... Sec 4 farewell, hais. I feel like I'm being a little forced to bring the food. I mean, I would like to think and like bring something that I can make, but everybody else wants to make something so what can I do. Never mind I definitely won't get sponsored. That just means that for the month of January, the month where I'll probably stay back the MOST due to invest prac and training, I'll be like, 10 bucks short of cash. Which will probably mean I will have to skip recess or bring my own food. At least Chinese New Year will be at the end of the month.

This is for PW.
GY PICNIC THIS THURSDAY
10-3
BOTANIC GARDENS.
BE THERE OR BE RECTANGLE.

And tomorrow I have the kindergarten gathering thingy at Marina.
And Wednesday is training, invest prac and wii-ing.

I may be setting up the Christmas tree today. =) Yay.

Oh yeah, my uncle came to Singapore, and he's probably left already but he came yesterday. We ate salmon sushi. =) NIGIRI. I think.

Yep, okay. That's it for now.

WARNING: emo post.

All this while I've always told myself that what she says is so exaggerated and that you are really not that kind of person. But these past two months with you totally destroyed all that. She was totally right.

Tonight the immaturity you displayed to an innocent person who was just trying to do her job was shocking. How old do you think you are? You're not some silly little kid who is stubborn and refuses to move, and yet you behave just like that. Why couldn't you just take the freaking paper? Just because you want to sit around all night in the car because you don't want to take a tiny little piece of paper that could let us in, doesn't mean that I want to. Even better, later take the freaking paper, crumple it and throw it on the ground. I really couldn't believe that I am related to someone who is so immature as to have a fit with another adult over a paper. What the hell is wrong with taking another paper? You'll just throw it away anyway! The least you could do is to throw it into a bin. That lady had better make sure you get fined because you deserve every little bit of it. I almost wanted to get out of the car, apologise to the lady and walk home myself. When I was getting out, I couldn't even bring myself to look at you, because it's so embarrassing.

Immaturity is just one thing, selfishness is another. You can go out and buy Guitar Hero: World Tour, a trampoline and all sorts of things for your son, but when I want something, why is it so hard for you to just get it? Refusing to pay for the Kinabalu trip until you get a receipt? You are so stingy that you can refuse to pay all the way until the trip is over. It's surprising you actually rounded the number up to the nearest dollar. You only give us so much every month. So you buy us all sorts of material things, ipod, hand phone, cds, but what does that count? You hardly give us anything for our basic necessaties. Everything we have, it because of her hard work.

You weren't there for my whole life, and you don't even know who I am. Heck, you can hardly even get my age right. You mix up my name. I wasn't affected by it back then, I don't think I am now, but I really am starting to see your true colours and it really really disgusts me to think that I am half of you. I am so glad I didn't turn out like that because if I did, oh god, I can't even think about it. It would be so terrible, I would never blame anybody for not wanting to know me.

I wouldn't go back, but if she had to provide everything for us, I wouldn't be having the life I have now. You have to pay.

WTH does MEME mean?!? This reminds me of the whatever things we did last year in 1GY. =)

RULES:Do the "Letter MEME". Tag no less than 5 other people, and leave them a comment, informing them that they have been tagged. Then copy the "How-to" Letter Meme, and finish your Journal entry.

How you do the Letter Meme:
Dear (the last person who left a comment on your journal):I don't really know how to tell you this, but ___1___. I think I realized it ___2___ ___3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___. I'm sure you're ___6___ enough to understand ___7___. I'm returning ___8___ to you, but I'll keep ___9___ as a memory. You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___ .___12___,-Your name-

1.What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I'll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn't match
Grey - You're a pervert
Yellow - I'm selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're a loser
Other - I'm in love with your sister

2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When i change tennis shoes

3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kabab - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women's clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
None of the above - With George Bush and his wife

4. What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive out

5. What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflé
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - The crazy monk

6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - Man
O.C. - Emotional
One Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
Lost - High
House - Scarred
Simpsons - Cowardly
The news - Mongolic
Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Senile
Top Model - Middle-class
None of the above - Ashamed

7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I've felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa doesn't exist
Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we're cousins
Excited-That there is no solution to this.
Nervous - The middle-east
Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Overjoyous - That I'm open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks

8. What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader-poster
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from LA
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your contact book
Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs
Purple - Your old lottery coupons
Pink - The cut toenailsOther - Your memories from the military service

9. The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo
C/D - The oil stocks
E/F - Your neighbour Martin
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of your blood-sample
K/L - Your left ear
M/N - Your suicide note
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X -David's Tricot outfits
Y/Z - Your grades from college

10. The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Always will remember
C/D - Never will forget
E/F - Always wanted to break
G/H - Never openly mocked
I/J -Always have felt dirty before
K/L - Will tell the authorities about
M/N - Told in my confession today about
O/P - Was interviewed by the Times about
Q/R - Told my psychiatrist about
S/T - Get sick when I think ofU/V - Always will try to forget
W/X - Am better off without
Y/Z - Never liked

11. What do you prefer to drink?
Water- Our friendship
Beer - Senility
Soft drink - A new life as a clone
Soda - The incarnation as an eskimo
Milk - The apartment building
Wine - Cocaine abuse
Cider - A passionate interest for mice
Juice - Oprah imitations
Mineral water - Embarrassing rash
Hot chocolate - Eggplant-fetishism
Whisky - To ruin the second world war
Other - To hate the Boston Celtics

12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand - Warm regards
USA - Best regards
England - Good luck on your short-term leave from jail
Spain - Go and drown yourself
China - Disgusting regards
Germany - With ease
Japan - Go burn
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt - Fuck off now
France - In pain
Other - Greetings to your freaky family

Dear Xinyuan buddy(oh gosh, this won't go well):I don't really know how to tell you this, but I'll join the monastery. I think I realized it when your dwarf bit me in your camping car and I saw you sit on my penpal in Ghana . I'm sure you're masochistic enough to understand that Santa doesn't exist. I'm returning the pictures from LA to you, but I'll keep your suicide note as a memory. You should also know that I always will remember our friendship. Good luck on your short-term leave from jail,Miranda

Oh gosh. HAHAHAHAHA. This is so stupid.

I was looking through all the sec 4's prom pictures, which made me very excited for my prom, which is about TWO years away. =) I hope my year's prom is at a really cool hotel, but I don't think I'll be allowed to stay overnight at the hotel, which is very sad. =( But it's still exciting. I ISH WANTING A PINK GOWN. HAHA.

I'm about 4 chapters through with mocking bird, a little bit confused by the dialogue sometimes, but I think I'll be able to get it. =) I would say how many chapter left, but I can't read those type of XXII number thingies. I bet X is 5. Or maybe 10. I think it's 10. If that's the case, I have 26 more chapters. Woohoo!

Going to plaza sing tomorrow with BDF people, I can't shop at all because I'm poor. But then again, I never shop. Unless with my mum. =) I need to get lots of stuff tomorrow from my dad's house. Plus, he isn't replying my smses. Gah. So annoying.

I think I'm starting to put really random things here because I have nothing else to do and I'm bored. Great.

Did I tell anybody I AM SUBHASHEENEE GANESAN'S height! =) If she googles her name, she's so going to find my bloggie. =) I never find anything when I google my name. Quite sad. I think I would just find something about Miranda lying. Great.

Okay, I'll stop before I start adding even more random things.

GOOD MORNING EVERYONE.

I HEART MY BUDDIES

Watched Madagascar 2. Was supposed to watch at 12.20, but ended up watching at 11.20. =) Saw Siew Yun, Antje, Joellyn, Pei Wei, Cynthia and GEN today. =)) I felt so young again, because after the movie at PS, we went to Taka and we went to Kino and Taka's kids section. And we were revisiting the past and looking at all the cute little expensive stuff. Ate Auntie Anne's pretzel too. =) It's quite disturbing to see giant animated characters. Heh. It was a very good buddy-bonding outing. =))

I WANT PSR OUTING. AND SEC 2 PB OUTING. BRING IT ON PEOPLE. Can't wait for GY picnic too!

Went to Centrepoint today to do some window shopping.
I saw TWO really pretty PINK coats! =)
But they are like, really expensive.
I can't wait for Japan though, it's going to be freezing, but it'll be so exciting. =)
Oh yeah, we ate ramen and sashimi for lunch too! I was SO stuffed after eating! But it was pretty good.
It reminded me of Kinabalu training time when the 4 of us went to eat Jap food together. So much fun.
I'm kind of scared I'll freeze to death in Japan! I felt like I would at Sayat Sayat when the sun was just rising...

GOLAN YOSEF. He's not that famous, so this was the best I could find. He's so freakin hottt!! Ahem.

Then I also have my lovely SYTYCD(So You Think You Can Dance) dancers.

Not a very flattering picture, but still. The things he does on SYTYCD is like, super cute too! HAHA.

He actually kind of reminds me of...

On second thought, maybe not. He is from SYTYCD too anyway, previous season.

Oh great. While I'm searching for the pictures, I find out who won the season. NOW IT'S NOT EXCITING ANYMORE. The results were surprising. To me at least.

And since I'm pretty darn sure that Channel 5 will eventually show Just My Luck, I might as well. Even if they aren't dancers.

Then there's...

I watched Get Smart yesterday! It's SOO FUNNYYY! =))
The scene where Tisa said that the two guys was kissing was funny too! The way Tisa said it made it seem like it was really like, really really EWWW. But it wasn't that EWWWWW, it was just EWHAHAHAA.
Anne Hathaway is pretty. =)

This week has passed by so fast. Just a week ago I was sitting at home watching Cheetah Girls on TV eating my macs. And now? I've been to Malaysia, attended camp, slacked one whole day away and trained. WOW.

I was told the other day that there's only 2 more weeks of november and school starts in 6 week. I haven't even THOUGHT about homework, I've hardly gone out at all(that's partially due to the lack of moolah though) and I haven't bought next years school books. Next year sounds scary. I'm going to need to study during the holidays and I need to find a way to motivate myself. Help.

Some shoutouts to people! =))

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY ZAH, ALANNA AND STEPH! =)

GET WELL SOON SIEW!

It's been a week.

I just crashed out for about 4 hours because I got back from Malaysia yesterday, today actually, at 12am. Yep. Then I woke up at 7 to go back to school for the last day of MAD camp!

Went for camp on Monday, which was fun. I always love camp. SCPB rocks my lovely SCGS socks off. =) I had to leave at like, 7pm. And at that time, the PB was doing like, mass singing. It was heartbreaking to have to leave then. I did anyway. And when I got into my mum's car, she told me my grandaunt had just passed away. =(

So I went home and bathed and finished packing my stuff and then we took the bus to Ipoh. Didn't take the usual bus because the usual bus goes to KL. It was an 8hour journey, I could have watched Bruce Almighty but I couldn't hear a thing because it was so muffled. So i pushed the seat back all the way and all the stuff and I went to sleep. I slept quite well I guess.

Reached Ipoh at 5am in the morning. Felt ultra giddy and tired. Waited for my uncle to come pick us up. It was quite scary, because there were only 6 people there, all women. Which made us seem very vulnerable. It was all dark and quiet and stuff. My uncle came pretty fast, and we were back at my grandmother's house in a jiffy yep. Slept until about 9.

When we woke up, we went for breakfast, then we went to the funeral parlour. I talked to my other uncle about travelling and stuff. I don't know why but yep. Went to the hotel after that and slept some more after eating food and watch Kim Possible on TV. =)

Got up later, our aunt picked us up and we went to eat dinner. The Hor Fun there was DAMN DELICIOUS!!! =) I ate lots and lots of it. Went back to the funeral parlour for the wake, basically spent the whole time eating peanuts and paus, talking to my cousin, listening to my ipod and stuff. Went back to the hotel at about 11+. Watched this Disney show with Hayden Panetierre(obviously a spelling mistake) in it. Then I went to sleep.

Next day, got up early, ate breakfast. Funeral Day. It went by quite quickly. My mum got super agitated and there was this part when they were moving the coffin to the car or something, and we weren't supposed to look at it. So I was looking diagonally away, but then my aunt thought I was looking and then she told me not to look and then my mum got super angry, and she hit my head and sort of shouted "I told you not to look why did you still look!" I was just like, WTS.

So yeah, went to the crematorium, it went by really fast too. Then we went to a vegetarian restaurant for lunch. It tasted nicer than the vegetarian food during my uncle's wedding I think. We ate through the "dark" because there was some kind of power failure through the whole row of buildings so...

Went back to KL after the lunch. I ate this bread, which is called Papparoti, and it is DAMN GOOD. It's delicious! And there's apparently a store in Singapore, so I shall go track it down. =) I ended up buying a lot of stuff at my aunt's shop, where I don't usually buy stuff and instead I let my mum do all the work. So this time I felt bored and I wanted to try on stuff. So I bought a pair of D&G Pants(OMGGG!!), a DVF dress(OMGGGGG!), a skirt and a shirt. =) They're pretttyyyy.

Went back by budget airline later. LCCT stands for Low Cost Carrier Terminal. Exciting huh? So got home at 12.

Went for last day of camp today. I'm glad I didn't miss that. =)

Yesterday was horrendous.

Training was bad enough already, bad enough to make me want to do an emo post, but again I tell myself not to do it. My thighs are aching now. Greeatttt.

Yup so I go home, thinking my mum would come home after work, so I fall asleep. When she comes back, she tells me she had called my hand phone after training, but oh look! My hand phone was charging at home so she went out with her friend instead. She comes back home and then tells me she's going out again at night. Hais. So basically I just wasted another saturday away at home. As usual.

The only good thing about the day is that I was allowed to order in dinner. So i ate Macs for dinner + apple pie, and watched Cheetah Girls. But it's really quite sad that THAT'S the highlight of my day.

THEN, my mum calls home and asks if we want to go out for ice-cream, yippee! But then it turns out my aunt from Malaysia called and wanted to tell my mum that my grandaunt is in critical condition. Byebye ice-cream. Now that's like, 2 bad things all mashed up and stuffed together.

So after all that, I decide that I'll go to Malaysia with my mum, and we're supposed to leave. Today. So I have to miss training because we're supposed to leave after lunch. Also, if I go to Malaysia I'll be missing some of MAD Camp. But that's not the bad part. This morning my mum calls and tells me that we may not go to Malaysia today, and instead go tomorrow, maybe. So she's worried that I'll miss too much of camp and says maybe I don't have to go. Still not the bad part yet.

SO, if I skipped training today because I'm supposed to leave for Malaysia today and therefore can't make it, and now because that's (most probably) cancelled, WTH is she and her going to tell me? They'll start ratting on about commitment again and they just won't understand. I bet. Also, I already told Kristen that I'll probably be missing part of camp, like the first two days, and then I end up showing up on the first day, it'll be so annoying. Thank goodness I haven't told the teachers yet.

I also now have to totally repack my bag and maybe unpack my luggage. I DON'T HAVE FIVE PAIRS OF TRACK PANTS AND SHORTS THAT ARE THE SAME LENGTH AS THE SCHOOL SHORTS.

BUT, maybe I will go to Malaysia, but leave tomorrow. Then I'll miss like, 3 days of camp. Out of 4. I don't really want that though, I mean, as bad as everybody said camp was last year, I thought it was really fun. I don't really want to miss out on like, one of the biggest PB training things we're going to have. Also, on Wednesday, it'd be the Kinabalu reunion. I really want to go for that...

How has my life suddenly turned so confusing and down in a course of 24 hours?

I woke up at about 2.30 today. Yay. My day was KIND of productive. I started to clean up my room, which is right now in a mess because I was about to move on to the next section which looked very very scary and messy so I kind of gave up and here I am now.

I was sorting out through stuff and I found my diary which I kept for about 4 months in Primary 6. Made me reflect on my primary school life, and honestly, I DO think I was a little over sensitive back then. I guess. I just look back and I realise how different my life is now, how many best friends I had and then lost because I kept thinking they were annoying or something. I'm kind of glad that's SORT of changed now in secondary school. =) Maybe the reason why I haven't lost any best friends is because I don't exactly have like one best friend anymore. So maybe that's a good thing. =)

I need to figure out something to do for the kindergarten "reunion" thingy!! If anyone has ideas please tell me. Think, what can a bunch of people who haven't met for about 8 years do.

By my own buddy too!

1. The person who tag you is:
Ella buddy

2. Your relationship with him/her is:
58PB BUDDY!! Along with Xinyuan! =)

3. Your five impressions of him/her:
welfare-r
BUDDYYYY
candy-lovin'
GG watch-er
BUDDDYYYY =DDDD

4. The most memorable thing he/she has done for you:
WRITE BACK TO ME. YOU STILL OWE ME YOU KNOW.

5. The most memorable thing he/she has said to you:
if I told you I'd have to kill you.

6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will:
Freak.

7. If he/she becomes your lover, what does he/she need to improve on:
WRITING BACK TO ME!

8. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will:
Awwww

9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be:
She DIDN'T WRITE BACK TO ME.

10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is:
MAKE HER WRITE BACK TO ME. HAHAAHAHHA. GET THE MESSAGE ELLA?

11. Your overall impression of him/her is:
BUDDY-LICIOUS.

12. What do you think are other people's impression of you?
everybody loves me! Of course! =)

13. What do you love about yourself:
The fact that I love myself just the way I am, kinda.

14. On the contrary, what do you hate most about yourself:
My crybaby-ness

15. Who do you want to be if you could choose?
ME. MEMEMEMEMEMEMEME. Or maybe, someone who's in close relation with McFly. BUT not blood related. =)

16. For people that care and like you, say something to them:
I LOVE YOU AS MUCH AS YOU LOVE ME AND I LOVE ME.

The rest I've done.

Trailer for 17 Again!



It's kind of funny seeing Zac Efron with curly-ish hair for a while? But the movie looks pretty funny, it's like the opposite of 13 going on 30 or something. Comes out Spring next year, Yay?

Throughout the whole trip there were songs that would relate to the trip, or songs that would be stuck in my head while I was climbing or something, so I thought I'd create a Kinabalu playlist! =)

1. One Step At a Time - Jordin Sparks
2. Hot n' Cold - Katy Pery
3. You're Beautiful - James Blunt
4. No Sleep 2nite - The Faders
5. Top of the World - The Carpenters
6. Can I Have This Dance - HSM3
7. High School Musical - HSM3
8. No Air - Jordin Sparks
9. Keep Holding On - Avril Lavigne
10. Ain't No Mountain High Enough - Diana Ross
11. We Rock - Camp Rock
12. Food Glorious Food - Oliver Twist
13. Barbie Girl - Aqua
14. You've Got a Friend - McFly
15. Cold Water - Damien Rice
16. Raindrops Keep Falling on My Head - B.J Thomas
17. Twinkle Twinkle Little Star
18. Fun In The Sun - Steve Harwell
18. My Love - Westlife
19. Power Rangers Theme
20.Next Plane Home - Daniel Powter























































Alas, the photo uploading is done. Took me 2 freakin hours and now I find out the order is also freakin messed up.