WARNING: emo post.

All this while I've always told myself that what she says is so exaggerated and that you are really not that kind of person. But these past two months with you totally destroyed all that. She was totally right.

Tonight the immaturity you displayed to an innocent person who was just trying to do her job was shocking. How old do you think you are? You're not some silly little kid who is stubborn and refuses to move, and yet you behave just like that. Why couldn't you just take the freaking paper? Just because you want to sit around all night in the car because you don't want to take a tiny little piece of paper that could let us in, doesn't mean that I want to. Even better, later take the freaking paper, crumple it and throw it on the ground. I really couldn't believe that I am related to someone who is so immature as to have a fit with another adult over a paper. What the hell is wrong with taking another paper? You'll just throw it away anyway! The least you could do is to throw it into a bin. That lady had better make sure you get fined because you deserve every little bit of it. I almost wanted to get out of the car, apologise to the lady and walk home myself. When I was getting out, I couldn't even bring myself to look at you, because it's so embarrassing.

Immaturity is just one thing, selfishness is another. You can go out and buy Guitar Hero: World Tour, a trampoline and all sorts of things for your son, but when I want something, why is it so hard for you to just get it? Refusing to pay for the Kinabalu trip until you get a receipt? You are so stingy that you can refuse to pay all the way until the trip is over. It's surprising you actually rounded the number up to the nearest dollar. You only give us so much every month. So you buy us all sorts of material things, ipod, hand phone, cds, but what does that count? You hardly give us anything for our basic necessaties. Everything we have, it because of her hard work.

You weren't there for my whole life, and you don't even know who I am. Heck, you can hardly even get my age right. You mix up my name. I wasn't affected by it back then, I don't think I am now, but I really am starting to see your true colours and it really really disgusts me to think that I am half of you. I am so glad I didn't turn out like that because if I did, oh god, I can't even think about it. It would be so terrible, I would never blame anybody for not wanting to know me.

I wouldn't go back, but if she had to provide everything for us, I wouldn't be having the life I have now. You have to pay.